Found In Christ

I am a lost soul. I used to know myself. Sure of what I do, who I am, whom I belong. Now all these things are head knowledge. In my heart, I know I am lost. This world has swallowed me whole. I am trying to find my way back home. Stress has taken its toll on me, and supposed friends influenced me to be superficial, bitter, and demanding. But I don’t blame anyone. I can only blame myself because I let circumstances change me. I allowed myself to be part of the world rather than stand up to it. It was easier to blend in. It was so easy to compromise. But all that has left a bitter taste in my mouth and a hollow space in my heart. And a lingering thought of regret. But I must not. That’s another worse thing that I can do. Live in regret. It’s all in the past. I can move on from this second onward. I can be better. I can find inspiration in God, in my real friends, in people whom I belong to. I can be better. With the help of God I can find the meaning of my life again. I can go back on His path and trod and work hard. I will live my life for God. So that no matter what I do, wherever I am, I have a purpose. His purpose is my purpose. Money can buy me a beautiful hairstyle and all the make-up in the world but only God can change me inside. Only God can make me beautiful inside. I am working on changing myself inside. With God’s help, I will be beautiful inside as well as out. I am living my life for You, Lord. I am sorry I veered from Your way. I am back on Your path and with that I am content, I am happy, and I am not lost anymore. I love You.